Penning My Emotions

I believe that some memories are worth penning down, for every good moments are worth remembering. 

I was 10 when I started keeping a diary, even until now. It's one thing I can't live without. 

Since then, I was used on penning all my emotions. Be it sadness, happiness, pain, jealousy, heartaches, etc. 

It was my way of releasing different overwhelming feelings inside of me, especially when my heart can't take it no more. Things I could not tell to anyone. Things I don't want others to know. It's my only refuge. 

Countless drops of my tears stained some several pages. Different colors of pens have stroked the leaves of it. Many words were penned on it. 

I have read many good novels all my life but my diary will forever be my favorite book.

Why? 

Because what's written in there tells the story of my life.

-written 10/04/2010

Have You Ever?

       Have you ever cried not because of pain or heartache but because of so much love for someone?

      This happened to me when I was sitting one morning in our small yet blossomy garden. Having my second cup of coffee and reading (for the nth time) my favorite romance novel. 
  

     That day I know something’s wrong inside of me. I tried to shut down the feeling and mentally shove it in the corner of my heart. But it was a losing battle. It was so disturbing it shook my soul like an earth quake.
    

     Was it because of the story I was reading? But the odd feeling has been with me since I woke up in the morning. 

     Suddenly an image of someone appeared on my mind. I was dumb struck as the realization hit me like a thunder. Was I in love with him? Oh god, yes, I love him. And there’s no way I could deny it and even a freakin' chance to escape from it. 

     I didn’t realize I was crying until I placed my palm over my cheek. Then I smiled and sighed with so much love and bliss. 

      Loving him is enough. Odd, I did not even prayed that he’ll love me back. Loving him was just truly enough.

    Now: This is so effin cheesy! I wan't to hung myself upside down for writing this!